Thank you

I'm still trying to suss out after all this time what the allure of twitter is, it's like the freshly made chocolate cake you just gotta dib your finger in, the hanging icicle that you just got to snap or for someone like me (with the mental age of a 4 year old) the puddle you just have to jump in.

I guess it's that time of year when everyone and myself included starts to think back on the year that has nearly ended. To be honest it's been the shittiest year of my life ever, period. My marriage was the the toughest ever, adoption social workers have played with my emotions like a alsatian chewing a bone. My father had a heart attack in front of me, my mums got terminal cancer and I've closed my business I spent 12 years building and 6 years training for.
Fucking hell, it's hardly the bloody Waltons is it? Truth is yes, its been a shitty year but we're all still standing so it's the fucking best yet. I don't care about my work, I care about people and I'd happily care for all of them forever if meant they stayed around for longer. Things in other areas are better and the most beautiful thing happened to me this year is that the man from Delmonte said yes Lotty you can have your baby girl and the adoption stork brings her in January. How cool is that, I still can't bloody believe it, I get to have a BABY GIRL, that, like wears pink and everything!!! That I can only dream I have the closeness like I have with my mother now. Shit a fucking breeze block! Miracles do bloody happen and they happen to me, who'd have thought it, little northern Lotty plodding along......BOOM ere you go love have a dream come true, apparently I'm allowed! I think that's what's called a result.

So where does twitter fit it? Well many ways and in many forms actually but the biggest is I've shared it all with you along the way, I've said this in blogs before; people use twitter for many different reasons, I use it to vent, to get stupid thoughts freed from my mind and to spit the gristle out when life being a bastard (it's been a bloody life saver this year) Hands up! I'm a pure 100% selfish twitter user, don't give a shit what people think, its the only area of my life its all about the lotty and I still bloody forget that people read my ramblings, as you all are now...you bloody idiots. A thing happened though I started giving a shit about you beautiful people and I bloody love that. I've been lucky enough to meet some of you folk this year and I happily call you real 3D friends now and you've even seen my limp, third nipple and squint and you still love me, fancy that.

I'm still a selfish twitter user and will happily continue to do be so, but some of you I genuinely want to speak too everyday. Your wonderings into my real life have been like finding a chocolate bar you forgot you had, a happy perk if you will.
I'm blessed to have met you and to have shared some very special and quite frankly 'thank god I'm wearing my Tena lady moments.' I've sometimes been sat in front of the screen with tears of laughter streaming....I love that, I am truly blessed. So thank you you beautiful people, for everything you have been, everything you are and everything you will be, your as freaky as fuck and at nutty as a snickers but I love you in all your wondrous ways twitter folk, here's to 2012 and this time next year when we're all still standing again, but just that little bit taller and wiser eh.

Love you guys and gals, you know who you are because I'm never afraid to say it. I'm like that in life with all my friends and family, if you love someone tell em because everyone wants to know they are loved and cared about. I guess that's the nail on the head, twitter you are now part of my real life and I embrace you like a bacon buttie when I'm hungover. Thank you for being there and making in a 140c my shitty year just that little bit bearable.

Mwah xxxxxx

By the way, I don't wear Tena lady so piss off!!!